Time and Transformation in Autobiography

Candia McWilliam’s What to Look for in Winter: A Memoir in Blindness

Keywords: autobiography, lifetime, transformation, narrative and self, memory

Abstract

In this article, I discuss transformations of self over time in Candia McWilliam’s memoir What to Look for in Winter. In this book, the author writes about many life-changing events: her mother’s suicide, her two failed marriages, her alcoholism and her blindness, to name only a few. However, the book itself constitutes an attempt at transforming these experiences in the act of writing, to offer restitution to a life gone awry. Time plays a major role in this endeavour, both in the story told and in the way it is told. Anchored primarily in two ‘present’ moments in the first and second halves of the book, the narrative moves back and forth in time, taking the reader on a painful journey through the author’s past. Time furthermore serves as an overarching metaphor for transformations especially due to illness, as can already be seen in the book title’s reference to the seasons. What emerges is a highly complex literary autobiography in which life storytelling meshes with metanarrative reflection.

Author Biography

Jarmila Mildorf, University of Paderborn

Professor of English language, literature and culture at Paderborn University. Her research interests are in socionarratology, audionarratology, radio drama, dialogue, life storytelling, the medical humanities and second-person narration. She is the author of Storying Domestic Violence: Constructions and Stereotypes of Abuse in the Discourse of General Practitioners (University of Nebraska Press 2007) and Life Storying in Oral History: Fictional Contamination and Literary Complexity (De Gruyter 2023). Recent co-edited collections include Narrative and Mental Health: Re­Imagining Theory and Practice (Oxford University Press 2023) and Word, Sound and Music in Radio Drama (Brill 2024).

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Published
2023-12-14
How to Cite
[1]
Mildorf, J. 2023. Time and Transformation in Autobiography: Candia McWilliam’s What to Look for in Winter: A Memoir in Blindness. Perspectives on Culture. 45, 2 (Dec. 2023), 181-198. DOI:https://doi.org/10.35765/pk.2024.4502.14.
Section
Transformations within Time: the Individual